I do admit that I have a problem, my parents came and talked to me today about whats been going on with me and really trying to break through and wake me up. The past few months I’ve been on a downward spiral of going back to my depression and I’ve been letting myself go, not been active, been housed up in my room a lot more and just not enjoying life like I used to. It sucks but I had to get awoken somehow and I know I got a problem, on Monday my mom is calling the doctor to have me get an appointment to be put on medication again. When I was on it, I was feeling a hell of a lot better than what I am feeling now.
It’s time I get back my life and get back in control and start being happy again. I need to, I can’t continue living like this, like I am hollow and emotionless and lifeless. Gotta get better.
I have been trying to get my spirits back up and I have been feeling a little better, every day I seem to find my light again, because I know I am worthy of life and happiness. I just got to believe in myself. The past few weeks have been horrible, feeling all crummy and at a standstill. But now that spring is coming and the weathers gonna get nicer, and I will be able to get out and walk more and get back into working out. I am grateful for the friends that I have by my side, and my family who’s there with me too.Every day it gets easier to breathe, and just live life and be happy.